I will SHINE

Three years ago today, this young man made Heaven a brighter place. 

Three years ago today, my heart broke. 

Three years ago today, I can remember every detail vividly. 

Three years ago today, I learned the most valuable lesson; 

Never take people you love in your life for granted.  

Life is beyond precious and with a blink of an eye it can be gone. 

  Zach and I taught each other a lot. 

We were both each other's first loves. 

We laughed a lot together.

And supported each other always. 

I know he is watching over me. 

There are days that it almost feels like he is standing next to me. 

I miss him so much. 

I miss his giant hugs

I miss his laugh. 

I miss his "Just Because" surprises.

I just miss him. 

Zachery Alan will always have a piece of my heart. 

I found this quote a while back and it has stuck with me.

I know it was the words I needed to hear. 

It is hard to live in a world with so much hate and sadness and not become a little jaded. 

Bad things happen to good people. 

I am a firm believer, that certain things just shouldn't happen. 

I do not believe any parent should ever have to bury their child 

nor should anyone this young have to deal with losing the one they love.

I made a promise to Zach a couple of years ago when I was in such a funk trying to deal with losing him. 

I promised him I would SHINE. 

Continue to make a difference in the world. 

Not let this destroy me, but change me so I appreciate people more.

Change me in a way, that I can support others going through similar things. 

I am determined to not let myself be hard, hate or bitter. 

Mainly, hard. I am not hateful or too bitter.

That is not who Zach fell in love with. 

I am going to do my best to not let lives lessons make me cold. 

It takes some reminders, but seeing his smile helps me remember the person I was with him. 

The person I wanted to become.

I WILL SHINE! 

I love you.